Sorry for your loss! I am also too familiar with the feeling of helplessness

no matter how hard you tried.
There are just so many hurdles you had to overcome and even if you treated them perfectly there are so many factors that you may not be able to treat. You had to first figure out what was happening, then figure out an appropriate treatment, and actually getting the treatment, all while having that time constraint. It’s definitely a stressful process due to the urgency of the situation as your babies were deteriorating rapidly.
Great job on asking for help and providing them with the best chance of survival! The next pair of clowns will thank you! Don’t be too hard on yourself and best of luck on the next nemos!