This hobby can be discouraging for sure. Like any hobby I believe. The real key here is how you choose to respond to these and any setbacks.
If you truly are not happy with it, and don’t see yourself overcoming that, identify it now and don’t waste your time. Life is short, do what makes you happy.
I personally think maybe a nice break, a little time to tidy up studying and learning etc can refresh your mindset and desire. But at the end of the day, it’s your time, your money, your life. Do what you enjoy! I hate to see a passionate reefer leave due to frustration etc. so if you need to vent, support, fresh ideas etc this community is an amazing place to help. Good luck and I hope you change your mind